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Well hello~ how are you all?
here i am, updating a bit, better a bit.

can't say i feel 100% good, because i literally feel in a cage, or like a blind boxer, without knowing where to give the next punch.
it's been a lot lately, in many ways. of course it's been full of tears, but also full of laughs and smiles.
i just hope this darkness inside me goes away, that is.
i feel so surrounded by people who cares about me, and i feel so alone at the same time. just nonsense in my head, but it feels real.
so i just start doing a lot of things to avoid feeling like it, because that's what happens when i spend too much time with myself. i get depressed. i feel i want to vanish. i feel i don't need to be here. i feel worthless. and i want to write it because it feels real.
most of my tears are because of it. it's really, really hard for me to type that this is not the first time i want to die. i know it's wrong, and i shouldn't give up. i know it's coward, i know it's meaningless. i know. but it feels real.
i feel my heart suddenly becomes little, really little, and empty.
yesterday night i spent around two hours outside in the balcony, crying because i admitted it. because i miss too many people. because of the dispair in me. and i couldn't. just couldn't do anything about it, and made me cry more. i just wanted to go away. i wanted to never come back. i even felt prepared for it.
but a voice inside me says "don't give up" "endure sis" "beri, you can do it" "do your best"
that's you. you made me want to go on.

i want to apologize from the bottom of my soul for making you all read this, i really do. it feels like i just run in circles, it's frustrating.
my birthday is coming soon, and i don't know how to feel about it. i feel like when you try by the first time a videogame with a new console you don't know of. lost. confused.
again, sorry for making you read pity me. sorry. i'm so sorry.

but well, that's what life is about. if you feel like nothing, make yourself something, someone, you.
i feel i want to burst, and change. like if all the tears were just the magical water to make a spell, and cast it on myself.
and i want to do it not only because this is something that shouldn't be, but because of you.
you give me strenght. you make me want to do it. your smiles, your jokes, your "cheer up!" and "get well soon" are my light.
i want to thank you everyone who ever wrote to me, no matter if you still do or not, for making my days brighter. for giving me always a reason to smile for. thank you. thank you. my little heart thanks you. little me thanks you.
i just close my eyes when i feel lonely, and think "hey, there's still a lot to do!" and i just slap myself and keep on.

i will try my best. i will.
so goodbye this time, a good hello tomorrow. i will change.
a "general cleaning" session this time.
this unloved sensation has been chasing me from more years than i do have right now. there's too many years to count for one night, with these stars shining bright, helping me out.

surgery time.
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before i go, i had these wonderful photos in my computer, and want to share them with you:
they're mostly Eowyn, but there's also Natasha. i remember i had a hard time  when they slept on the couch because their colours were similar! sometimes i had no idea they were there, just sleeping.
i'm sure you're having fun.
sorry for making you worry all the time about me, but i will get better for you.

Fotografía 1619 by Berichan Untitled by Berichan  Untitled by Berichan  Untitled by Berichan
Untitled by Berichan   Fotografía 1173 by Berichan   Untitled by Berichan

Berichan loves you :iconlubplz:
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  • Listening to: Hikari no Rasenritsu: strings version-Rozen Maiden
  • Reading: Nothing much
  • Watching: nothing
  • Playing: KH 1.5 - Chain of memories
  • Eating: nothing
  • Drinking: nothing

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Berichan
Elbereth Rojas
Artist | Student | Traditional Art
Venezuela
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Hi hi~
I'm Berichan, and it's a pleasure to meet you!

My real name is Elbereth, but feel free to use any name you want to C:
as i love any kind of art, my style tends to be rather colorful; my passion is drawing, designing, paiting, singing, and most of the time i'm daydreaming.

I have a special fanatism with desserts~ i love to taste them, see them and even if they're not real i enjoy the feeling it gives to me n.n
i'm in love with miniature art lately, and have my own sylvanian family house~
other of the things i like is cats, chocolate (eh, that's desserts i know), music from classic to asian pop and rock and even metal, astrology, tarot, manga and anime (of course), photography, lolita fashion/dressing lolita/the feeling of lolita, and even just discovering something little that moves my heart and makes my day.

Currently i work in a medical consultory, soon will be studying but shssh that's secret! (?)
i love, and i mean i LOVE meeting and making friends so don't feel shy or nervous about talking to me, i don't bite ahaha

Have a nice day!
Berichan :iconlubplz:
Loves you,
Berichan

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P.S.: Thanks to Neicha-chan for making a speed paint of evil me :heart:
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:iconluehan:
luehan Featured By Owner 2 hours ago  Hobbyist Digital Artist
happy birthday!! ;; v ;; 
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hiaamir Featured By Owner 4 hours ago
:party: HAPPY Birth day !!! :D :dance:
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Neicha-chan Featured By Owner Oct 16, 2014  Student General Artist
Thanks for the fav Beri hahaha
You're the only one to ever do that though <3
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CakeUpStudio Featured By Owner Sep 28, 2014
thank you for faving and featuring my black glaze cake a while ago Dance!
may the Llama I offer in return remind you of my gratitude if you ever decide to +fav any of my other works in the future since I won't be spaming you with more 'thank you' notes Hug  but I'm always happy to answer comments or questions if you have any :D (Big Grin)
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cricketumpire Featured By Owner Sep 27, 2014  Hobbyist Photographer
Returning from Spain with intermittent internet access, hence the  late reply for which I apologise. Thanks for faving 'the lazy old boy' in "Lazy marmalade cat..."  

Glad you enjoyed it Elbereth   Orange Cat Luvie   
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Shinkan-Seto Featured By Owner Sep 17, 2014  Hobbyist Artisan Crafter
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:squee::squee::squee:I'll try not to disappoint you ;):squee::squee::squee:

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Shinkan-Seto Featured By Owner Sep 15, 2014  Hobbyist Artisan Crafter
Thank you so much for faving this:

:squee::squee: CIEL PHANTOMHIVE - Cosplay - Teatime by Shinkan-Seto :squee::squee:

Much appreciated!!! ^o^

Make sure to check out my next uploads too, if you don't already watch me ;)

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ninja2of8 Featured By Owner Sep 14, 2014  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
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Get well soon!
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James-DC Featured By Owner Sep 14, 2014
Thanks for the :+fav:, and I hope you're feeling better. Blow your nose! 
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lucytherescuedcat Featured By Owner Sep 7, 2014  Hobbyist Photographer
Thanks so much for the favs! Love 
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cricketumpire Featured By Owner Sep 2, 2014  Hobbyist Photographer
Thank you for faving the deserted street in Catalonia at siesta time  :siesta: Sleepin kitty emote        
So glad you liked it Elbereth   hug 
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ninja2of8 Featured By Owner Aug 29, 2014  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
Thanks for checking out my little chocolate treats and for the faves! You rock!
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cricketumpire Featured By Owner Aug 28, 2014  Hobbyist Photographer
Wikipedia says this species of spider is one of the stars in 'Eight Legged Freaks' 
This little lady was only about 16mm head to tail, so no threat to anyone. 
    :spider:   Thank you for faving my newest capture Elbereth and of course
                    equal thanks for the other faves as well!
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kingofthedededes73 Featured By Owner Aug 24, 2014  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
ty for fav
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BlackWings-jewelry Featured By Owner Aug 20, 2014
Thank you for the faves!^^
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babago Featured By Owner Aug 17, 2014
Thanks for the llama and fave :)
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Neicha-chan Featured By Owner Aug 6, 2014  Student General Artist
As usual thanks for favin' <3
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Astral-Chan Featured By Owner Aug 5, 2014  Student Filmographer
Thanks for the llama and fave :)
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Masanohashi Featured By Owner Jul 31, 2014
nice new icon, Beri-chan :0

by the way, can you sometime enter on skype so we can chat? we haven't done it for some long time
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vilindery Featured By Owner Jul 29, 2014
Thank you for the fav and watch :hug:
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